Episode filler after Relativity. In the last
scene Crais doesn’t look so good and I kept wondering, had he been given any
medical attention? Finally this story emerged. Crais is feeding Talyn his Engram, John
and Aeryn are discussing the events
Relative calm
By GitonCrais
“Shouldn’t
we be looking after his shoulder,” Crichton finally asked when he and Aeryn
returned to Command. They spoke in subdued tones. He glanced over at Crais who
still lay in the same position they had left him in four arns ago.
“You heard
what he said when he linked back up to Talyn,” Aeryn checked the readouts.
“Yes but
that was six arns ago. If we don’t treat his shoulder, infection might set in,”
he looked at her in puzzlement.
Aeryn smiled
at him, she finished her checks, “No John, he will not get an infection. You
forget that we have been inoculated to every known bacteria and virus in the
universe. He’ll be stiff and uncomfortable for a while but he will not die of
any infection.”
Crichton
couldn’t believe his ears, “You haven’t seen the wound on his shoulder! I think
he’ll be more than a little uncomfortable.”
“Of course I
saw it,” replied Aeryn with a raised eyebrow, “When he came back on board. We
have treated it as much as we could with the scanner…”
“Yeah, when
he stood still long enough for me to help him.”
“It was his
choice John…”
“What? Not
to get treated?”
“No, to help
Talyn first.”
“He could
have done that after we treated his shoulder!”
She sighed,
“He didn’t see it that way.”
At that
moment Crais turned position slightly. He let out a deep sigh, which sounded
more like a painful moan.
“You see,”
Crichton whispered forcefully to Aeryn, “That’s more than uncomfortable. I’m
waking him up.”
He started
walking to Crais but Aeryn held him back, “No, he’s feeding Talyn his Engram
patterns. You wake him up now and you will damage both their minds or kill
them.”
Crichton
looked back at Crais and saw the sheen of sweat on his brow. Some of Crais’
hair had come out of the queue and straggled limply around his face, his head
had sagged forwards. The position he had fallen in didn’t look comfortable.
Crichton
couldn’t believe that Aeryn had let Crais have his way. He turned back to her,
“It has nothing to do with… what happened, has it?”
“What do you
mean?”
“Him killing
your mother?”
“I have
accepted it as necessary,” she replied calmly, too calmly.
“And I have
to believe that?”
“Yes!” She
looked him squarely in the eyes, “She would have informed High Command. Crais
was right in his actions. It was necessary.” She looked away.
Crichton
turned her around, searching her eyes, “And you don’t resent him for it? That’s
dren Aeryn and you know it. I remember how you cried. I remember how you wanted
to go back to stop Crais from what he was going to do. I remember how you fell
in my arms when we heard the shots. I remember how you reacted when he came on
board.”
Aeryn
frowned, “A momentary weakness, that’s all.”
Crichton looked
in the eyes of the woman he loved, saw the pain buried there of losing her last
parent, “Aeryn, you are not a Peacekeeper anymore. You don’t have to hide your
feelings, especially not from me.”
She pulled
away from him, there was hurt in her voice, “I know I’m not a Peacekeeper
anymore but it is what I have learned. To be strong. No weakness. It was
necessary.”
Crichton let
her go. She moved back to the console, keeping herself occupied. Now and again
she stole a glance at her former Commander.
Crichton
looked back at Crais. The man might have his own hidden agenda. He could be a
pain in the eema and Crichton still didn’t trust him but he had came through
for them, even if it was in his own interest. If any of them had any doubts
about his relationship with Talyn it couldn’t be brought home more
emphatically. Crais protected Talyn with an obsession that might cost him his
life one day.
Crais’ link
to Talyn had nearly cost him his life about a weeken ago when Moya found them.
It nearly cost him his life when Talyn was given the poisoned Chromextin. It
could cost him his life now. Crichton had no idea how the transfer of the
Engram patterns worked, had no idea what kind of effect it would have on either
Talyn or Crais.
He had no
idea what an untreated shoulder wound could do to Crais. The man had barely
been able to walk by the time he caught up with them. He had stumbled inside
Talyn. Aeryn had glared at him, knew what he had done had to be done but there
was anger in her eyes too. She had shouted at him, accused him of being glad to
let the Peacekeeper bloodlust rule his actions. Accused him of taking away
another part of her past. She had poked his shoulder.
Crais had
stood there in stoic silence, leaning against the bulkhead, grasping his
shoulder with a nearly knuckle-white hand. Had not defended himself. He had
just let Aeryn rave at him.
It was
Crichton who had pulled Aeryn away from Crais.
Crais had
only looked at him briefly before stumbling to Command. His face betrayed the
shock he felt when he saw the devastation there. His own injury forgotten, he
had moved from one console to the next, assessing the damage done to Talyn. He
had linked up to his gunship and then crashed to his knees when Talyn’s pain
overwhelmed him.
Crichton had
picked up the medical scanner from Crais’ quarters before going to Command. He
had been able to give Crais his first treatment on his shoulder but Crais had
shoved him angrily away. Talyn came first.
“Crais your
shoulder…”
“Can wait,”
Crais had shouted at him through pain filled eyes, “Talyn is in pain. He’s
dying. He needs me, leave us… leave me alone!”
“But you
need…” Crichton advanced on Crais.
Crais
backhanded him hard with his left hand and Crichton fell stunned to the deck.
Crais had
reeled towards the main console, looked at the damage and sunk to the floor.
His eyes roamed the room and he sagged against the side of the console.
Crichton got
up, the scanner at the ready in one hand and feeling his jaw where Crais had
slapped him with the other, he bent down to Crais.
Crais
flicked his eyes open, “You can treat me after I have helped Talyn. He is our
main concern. If I can’t revive him we will sitting targets.” The hand that had
stopped Crichton’s from getting nearer was almost hot to the touch, “After.”
Crais leaned back.
Aeryn
entered Command, “Why haven’t you brought him to his quarters yet?”
Crichton
turned around, “Not my doing. Cap’n Crunch here won’t let me. Won’t even let me
treat him. So, don’t blame me.”
Aeryn bent
down next to Crais, “Sir, you need your shoulder seen to.”
Crais opened
his eyes, “Later. Talyn’s consciousness is fleeing. He needs help now! I will
feed him my Engram, maybe that can help him regain awareness. Now, leave me!”
She stood
up, “Very well.” She walked away.
“Aeryn…”
Crichton turned to look at her, “We need to help Crais.”
“You heard
what he said. Later. Talyn needs help first,” she ignored the two men.
When
Crichton looked back at Crais he saw that the man had slumped into
unconsciousness or sleep, it was hard to tell which.
Crichton
stood up and moved over to Aeryn, “What’s this Engram-thingy he was talking
about?”
Aeryn looked
at Crais and then at Crichton and her voice was calm, “Crais is going to share
his thought patterns with Talyn. Part of his mind will become Talyn’s. My…
mother destroyed most of Talyn’s awareness in order to render him docile. Crais
is trying to help Talyn regain his awareness.”
Crichton
looked over, “You mean that Talyn will not be Talyn anymore but that he will
become Crais?”
Aeryn shook
her head, “No, he will still be Talyn if Crais is successful but he will also
have part of Crais’ thoughts and awareness.”
“And what if
Crais is unsuccessful?”
“Then they
will both die.”
“How long
will it take before we know it had any effect,” Crichton asked Aeryn, his eyes
still riveted on Crais.
“Aeryn
shrugged her shoulder, “I don’t know. I have never seen it happen. Some arns, a
day.”
“I can’t
believe you can be so callous about it.”
“I’m not
callous about it.”
“Then what
do you call it?”
“Call what?”
“Your
reaction to Crais.”
“I’m just
following his wishes.”
Crichton
rolled his eyes, “That’s a first.”
Aeryn
frowned at him, “What do you mean by that?”
“Whatever.”
“Typical.”
“What?”
“It is
always your answer when you can’t win an argument.”
“Argument?
I’m just asking…”
Their voices
had grown louder and Crais stirred.
Crichton
dropped his voice, “I’m just asking if your reaction is not a reaction to him
shooting your mother.”
“I have
already answered that,” Aeryn hissed.
“And I don’t
believe you.”
“Whatever.”
Crichton
turned away in exasperation, “I’m going to help Rygel and Stark with repairs.”
He left Command.
Aeryn
watched him go
Crais
stirred, his eyes opened. He was disoriented.
Aeryn bent
down and gently cradled his body.
“Aeryn,”
Crais’ voice was hoarse.
“I’m here
Crais. Is Talyn all right?”
Crais nodded
weakly, “The Engram transference has worked. He will wake up soon.”
As if on cue
Talyn’s lights came on dimly.
Crais’ eyes
unfocused, “Rest Talyn. We have time.” The lights dimmed a little.
“What about
you Crais?”
“I will rest
too.”
“Can you
walk?”
“I will
try.” He tried to sit up, then stand but he fell weakly against the console,
“Maybe later.”
“Let me help
you up, I will get you to your quarters. Your shoulder needs treatment.”
Crais shook
his head warily, “I will rest first.”
“Don’t be so
stubborn,” Aeryn growled, “You need treatment. We have postponed it long
enough. You can rest after that.”
Crais shook
his head and seemed to drift off.
Aeryn
slapped his face lightly, “No you don’t. You’re not falling asleep on me.”
Crais opened
his eyes blearily, “Just a little rest.”
“No.
Treatment first, rest later.”
She hauled
him up by his left arm. He let out a cry of pain.
She moved
him in a standing position, “Now walk!”
He was too
weak to resist and let her guide him to his quarters. She dropped him on the
bed and then went off to get him a drink of water. When she returned, he was
barely conscious. She had to support him to let him drink, which he did
thirstily.
Getting his
tunic and shirt off was a painful affair. The blood had dried and had caked the
clothes to his shoulder but he clamped his lips and let her help take the tunic
and shirt off. Small grunts escaped when she tried to remove it carefully. His
left arm was already free but getting his right arm freed from the sleeves
would be too painful to remove slowly.
“Brace
yourself.”
“What for?”
She yanked
the tunic and the shirt off in one go. Crais’ screamed. He slumped forwards.
Aeryn smiled wryly, “Done.”
Crais was
barely awake when she started treating his wound.
“I am sorry
Aeryn. But it had to be done.”
“I know
Crais. Don’t mention it.”
“If there
had been another way…”
She growled,
“Don’t mention it.”
“I…”
She stepped
away from him, tossing the scanner on the bed, “I told you, don’t mention it.”
She ran out of the room and nearly collided with Crichton in the corridor,
“Baby what happ…” She ran straight past him. Crichton entered Crais’ quarters.
Crichton
found Crais lying on his side, barely conscious, his torso bared, the scanner
on the bed and fresh blood seeping from the wound. The whole shoulder looked
bruised, “What happened?”
Crais looked
up and sideways at Crichton, the last person he wanted to see, “I tried to
apologise. She took her mother’s death badly.”
“That’s an
understatement Crais. Let me help you.”
Crais had to
concede. He couldn’t do it himself. He had expected Crichton to make snide
remarks while he busied himself with his shoulder. He was surprised when he
didn’t.
“How’s
Talyn?”
“Resting.”
“It worked
then?” Crais nodded.
“Good.”
Crichton cleaned up the blood around the wound, “All done. Now, you rest.”
“About
Aeryn?”
“I’ll see to
her.” Crichton left the room without a further word.
Crais lay
back on bed, mindful of his shoulder. He could hear Talyn’s voice in his mind.
Talyn was happy to be back. Crais smiled, so was he.
He drifted
off to sleep.
The End