Episode filler after Relativity. In the last
scene Crais doesn’t look so good and I kept wondering, had he been given any
medical attention? Relative Calm emerged. This take off is due to a remark
ValleyForge made on Relative Calm, not entirely my fault. Crais is feeding Talyn his engrams, how
far can things go?
All is Relative
By GitonCrais
Crais had
stumbled into the clearing where Talyn was resting. He could barely walk, and
his left hand, which was clasped over his right shoulder, was stained red with
his own blood. He had even fallen to his knees once, but had managed to
struggle back to his feet after a few moments.
His eyes had focused on Talyn, noting how quietly Talyn rested. Just the
sight of the young Leviathan had seemed to urge him to his feet again.
The others
stood in the hatch and watched him stagger slowly towards the Leviathan.
Aeryn looked
at Crais with cold anger, her arms crossed over her chest. Crichton held his
arm protectively over her shoulder.
Stark and
Rygel were confused by the reaction of Aeryn and Crichton.
When Aeryn
and Crichton had returned to Talyn, Aeryn had been crying and Crais had not
returned with them. They hadn’t given any explanation for either occurrence.
Finally
Rygel looked up at Crichton, a tinge of anger in his voice, “Aren’t you going
to help him? I can’t. I do not have the power to lift him.” Crichton shrugged.
“He’ll get
here,” said Crichton with a drawl, not taking his eyes off Crais.
Stark made
little mewling sounds. He wanted to go forward into the clearing and get Crais,
but was undecided. He threw tentative glances at Aeryn and Crichton but they
didn’t move.
Finally,
only paces away from the hatch, Crais pitched forward and lay still. He was
close enough for them to hear his grunt of pain when he fell, and the heavy
breathing afterwards.
He tried to
raise himself but loss of blood or pain drove him back to the ground.
Stark looked
at Crichton, his voice changing in pitch, “Help him!”
Crichton
walked down the ramp and bent down to lift Crais
Crais
couldn’t suppress a yelp of pain when Crichton hauled him up. He bit his bottom
lip to suppress another cry.
Inside
Talyn, Crichton let him stand on his own feet and Crais leaned against the
bulkhead, catching his breath. It had taken Crais a long time to get back to
Talyn. He had to backtrack a couple of times, then he had passed out twice. He
had been afraid that he would never get back to Talyn. He had barely been able
to feel Talyn through the link and Crichton had taken the positioning device.
At first Crais had thought that the reason he couldn’t hear Talyn outside was
because the youngster was ‘sleeping deeply’ or that the atmosphere of the
planet was the cause. But he couldn’t hear or feel Talyn even after he was
inside the little ship, and that worried him.
He looked at
the faces around him. His voice was hoarse with concern and pain, “What has
happened to Talyn? Why is he so quiet?”
“As if you
care,” Aeryn sneered at him.
“I do,
Aeryn. Something is wrong with Talyn. He…”
“As if you
cared when you shot my mother.”
“It was
necessary,” Crais grasped his arm tighter and began to move towards Command,
but Aeryn spun him around and slammed him into the bulkhead. He closed his eyes
in pain.
Her face was
up close to his, “She could have been persuaded.”
He looked at
her as calmly as he could, “She would never have been ‘persuaded’, and you know
it.”
“Yes, she
could have. Are you so set on taking everything away from me?”
“Aeryn, she
would have informed on us to High Command. She...”
Aeryn
slammed him again into the bulkhead and this time Crais couldn’t suppress a
moan escaping his lips. She glared at him, “First you took Velorek away from
me...”
He managed
to sneer at her, “Whom you betrayed.”
She pushed
him again and he closed his eyes briefly, only just managing to keep upright.
“Then you
condemned me, declared me ‘Irrevocably Contaminated’…”
“For the
better, I may…”
The anger in
her eyes blazed with renewed fury, “And then you killed my mother!”
“It was
necessary for the…”
“For your
own hide!” She jabbed him in the shoulder, and he clenched it with a nearly
knuckle-white, blood-caked hand.
Stark and
Rygel listened in shock to the exchange.
Rescue came
from an unexpected corner. Crichton pulled Aeryn away from Crais.
Crais didn’t
wait much longer before he stumbled onward toward Command. He had to know what
had happened to Talyn.
Staggering
into Command, he lurched towards the main console. His face twisted in grief
and shock, “No… No… What has she done to you…”
Burnt
conduits and wires were strewn all over Command. Sparks flickered. The lights
on the consoles flashed dimly. His bloodstained hands flew over the controls
but he could barely feel Talyn.
“TALYN!” His
heartrending cry reverberated throughout Command and reached out into the
corridor.
Then Crais
felt him, weakly, at the perimeter of his mind.
Crais
focused to strengthen the link.
He crashed
to his knees as Talyn’s pain overwhelmed him. Crais managed to withstand it
only because it told him that his friend was still alive.
He had to do
something, or it wouldn’t be for long. Talyn’s mind seemed to be drifting away,
dimming. Crais concentrated and lent his strength to Talyn. For a moment the
console flickered back to life and Crais knew instinctively what he had to do.
The others
ran to Command. They had heard Crais’ scream, known what he had found.
They saw him
crawl to the main console, sag against the side.
Crichton
tried to pull him away, “It’s over, Crais.”
“No,” Crais
gasped, his eyes roaming around Command, “It is not. Talyn needs my strength. I
can save him. I will feed him my engrams. He will not die.” He jerked himself
away from Crichton. He slumped against the console.
Crichton tried
to pull him away again, “Crais, it is too late to save Talyn. Your shoulder…”
“Can wait,”
Crais growled, “While I’m feeding Talyn, you and Aeryn fix his conduits and
wires. He will stand a better chance.” Crais sagged further and closed his
eyes.
Crichton
looked over at Aeryn, “Do you know what he’s talking about?”
Aeryn stared
at Crais and nodded slowly, “I think I do, I’m not sure.”
“Well, what
is it?”
“I heard
Pilot mention it once. I don’t even know why we were talking about it.”
“And?”
Crichton grew impatient.
“It has
happened between Pilots and Leviathans before. Faced with the threat of
irreparable brain damage to the Leviathan, the Pilot would establish a full
mind-link to his Leviathan. He would then splice in his own neural engrams, and
feed the Leviathan with his own mind-imprint, so to speak, his own energy
force, to help restore the balance in the Leviathan’s mind,” Aeryn’s eyes were
riveted on Crais.
“Great,”
said Crichton as he stood up, “So, we’ll have a humongous clone of a mad
ex-Peacekeeper. That’s just frelling great.” He tossed his hands up in the air,
“That’s just what we need, a Crais with mega-guns and a mega-temper.”
“No,” said
Aeryn, “Talyn will not be just a copy of Crais. Well, not completely anyway, I
think. He will still be Talyn, but with parts of Crais’ psyche melded to his.”
“And that
should make me feel better?” Crichton asked with a sneer.
Aeryn
finally looked up at Crichton, “We don’t know for sure what it will do to
Talyn… or to Crais. Pilot wasn’t very clear about that.”
“Okay, I’m
going to wake Cap’n Crunch up. He’s not going to mind-poison Talyn.”
“We can’t do
that, John.”
“Why not?”
“You wake
him up now and you might damage both their minds, or even kill them.”
“Aw, what a
shame,” Crichton walked back to Crais.
“You want to
be stuck on this planet?” Rygel’s voice stopped him, “I don’t.”
“What do you
mean,” asked Crichton, turning to the Hynerian.
“If what
Aeryn says is right, your waking Crais up could result in both of them dying or
in permanently damaging their minds. Either way, we will not be able to fly
away from here.”
Crichton
looked back at Crais.
“Are you
willing to take that chance,” Rygel asked calmly.
“His
shoulder…”
“You touch
him and he wakes up.”
“Rygel is
right, we should leave Crais for now,” said Aeryn.
“How long
will that take?”
Aeryn
shrugged, “I don’t know, arns, days. As Crais requested before he passed out,
we should do what we can to fix the conduits and wires of the consoles. It will
give Talyn and Crais a better chance.”
“Stark and I
will continue cutting Talyn free.” Stark and Rygel left Command.
Crichton
turned to Aeryn, “What happens if he’s successful?”
“Then Talyn
will have use of his higher functions again and we can fly out once he’s
healed.”
“And if he
isn’t?”
“Then Talyn
and Crais will probably die, and we will be stuck here.”
“You’re
taking this all very calmly.”
“Nothing
more we can do at the moment.”
She started
on the repairs.
After one
last look at Crais, Crichton helped her.
It was
strange, working on the consoles with Crais lying in Command. Crichton wasn’t
sure whether he was unconscious, asleep or faking it.
“You sure
he’s not just faking it?”
“John, he’s
feeding Talyn his neural patterns. It might take a long time, I don’t know.”
Crichton
lowered his voice, “But what if he isn’t? Maybe Talyn’s mind is already gone.
Maybe he’s just going for the sympathy vote. You know. If we’re all stuck here
together, maybe we’ll help him get off this rock.”
Aeryn rolled
her eyes, “No John, he’s not faking it.”
“How can you
be sure?”
“Two things.
One: The wound on his shoulder was still bleeding; he would not willingly try
to bleed himself to death. Two: Talyn’s condition is improving. The air is
fresher. Whatever Crais is doing, it seems to be working.”
“Still…”
Crichton looked over at Crais. The few stray hairs that had come undone from
the queue were damply plastered to Crais’ pale face. His face was so innocent
in rest.
As if in
answer to Crichton’s question, a shudder went through Talyn and then another as
Talyn began to lift off from the planet.
Aeryn
smiled, “Still think he’s faking it?”
Through the
view-port they could see how Talyn rose slowly away from the planet. Soon, the
black of space filled the screen. Movement was slow but at least they were
slipping back into space again.
Crichton
entered Command again four arns after they had finally left the planet. Crais
had shifted position ever so slightly. His breathing was heavy, and audible,
but it had also become much more steady.
“How is he,”
asked Crichton, stealing a contemptuous glance at Crais.
Aeryn looked
at Crais with tired concern. She had stayed in Command to keep an eye on Crais’
and Talyn’s progress, which had been so slow, “Crais is attempting to splice
his neural engram with Talyn and if he can, Talyn will be able to navigate on
his own again.”
Crichton
looked at Crais in disgust, “It is just that a large part of Crais’ psyche will
now reside in Talyn.”
There was
sadness in Aeryn’s eyes, “It’s the only way we can bring Talyn back alive.”
There was
doubt in Crichton’s eyes.
Arns later,
Crais opened his eyes. He was disoriented. He tried to move but fell back
weakly when he moved his shoulder.
Aeryn bent
down and gently cradled his body.
“Aeryn,”
Crais’ voice was hoarse. He was surprised that it was she who was helping him.
“I’m here,
Crais. Is Talyn all right?”
Crais nodded
weakly, “The transference has worked. He will wake up soon.”
As if on
cue, Talyn’s lights came on dimly.
Crais’ eyes
unfocused, “Rest, Talyn. We have time.” The lights dimmed a little.
“What about
you, Crais?”
“I will rest
also,” his head lolled weakly. He winced as she took a better grip on his
shoulder.
“We’ll have
to treat this.”
Crais nodded
and tried to get himself into a standing position. He couldn’t do it on his
own, and he flinched in pain with each movement of his shoulder. With the help
of Crichton and Aeryn, he finally made it to his quarters.
He was
barely conscious by the time they reached his quarters. They dropped him on the
bed and he didn’t even attempt to move into a more comfortable position.
While Aeryn
went to the refresher to get some water, Crichton straightened out Crais’
unresponsive body. Little grunts issued from his lips when Crichton moved him.
Aeryn had to
support Crais to help him to drink. He drank thirstily.
Getting his
tunic and shirt off was a painful affair. The blood had dried and it had caked
the clothes to his shoulder. Still, he clamped his lips and let her help take
the tunic and shirt off. A small moan escaped his lips when she tried to remove
it carefully. His left arm and side were already free but getting his right arm
loose from the sleeve would not be so easy. She lifted the shirt over his head.
Only his right arm and side were still inside the clothes.
She looked
at him with a fixed stare, “Brace yourself.”
Crais looked
at her tiredly, “What for?”
She yanked
the tunic and the shirt off in one go, the wound opening again. Crais screamed.
He slumped forwards. Crichton was only just in time to catch him from falling
off the bed.
Aeryn smiled
wryly, “Done.”
Crichton had
to swallow a gulp when he saw the cold expression on Aeryn’s face.
Crais was
barely conscious when they started treating him. The area around the wound was
badly bruised and his whole right side was red where the blood had trickled
down. The scanner closed the wound. They washed the blood away.
“There,”
replied Aeryn, “He just needs to rest now.” She left the room.
That left
Crichton to watch over the unconscious man.
Crichton
took a chair, turned it around and sat on it backwards, watching Crais.
The man’s
breathing was ragged now, even in sleep. His face was peaceful, too peaceful.
Crichton
took Winona out and sighted Crais along the barrel. It would be so easy. He
stopped. It would also not help them control the little gunship.
Crais
regained consciousness gradually. When his vision cleared, he found himself
looking into the face of John Crichton. It was not a sight he enjoyed waking up
to.
He moved the
sheet with his left hand over his shoulder, covering himself against the chill
and the prying eyes of Crichton.
Crichton
looked at him in silence.
That was
fine by Crais. He tried to get into a more comfortable position and winced.
Finally,
Crichton broke the silence, “So, do we have a mad Leviathan on our hands now?”
“I don’t
know what you mean,” Crais’ voice was hoarse. His throat was dry but he
wouldn’t ask Crichton for water. He looked at the flagon of water at the side
of the bed. He would have to move to get to it, showing the Jhumon his
weakness. Well, he wouldn’t do it. He licked his dry lips.
Crichton
watched Crais, saw his predicament and need, but made no move to offer any
help.
Crais closed
his eyes.
“Yo, Crais,”
Crichton roused him from his stupor, “What about my question?”
Crais opened
his eyes, “What question?”
“Is Talyn
now a big bad copy of yourself?”
Crais
scowled and wet his lips before speaking, “Talyn is still Talyn. He will have
some of my mind-imprint, but that will fade over time.”
“How long?”
Crais shook
his head. His mouth was dry. Speaking was painful.
“You don’t
know? Or you don’t care?”
“I don’t
know, Crichton. I have never done this before and…”
“Then how do
you know it will fade?”
Crais
furrowed his eyebrows, “I don’t… I just know, I can’t explain it.”
“Yeah,
right, and in the meantime, the youngster is plotting to take over the
universe.”
Crais
sighed, “You are exaggerating, Crichton.” He coughed.
“Am I? We
only have your say-so that Talyn will be all right. No one can talk to him. No
one can ask how he really feels. So, what if he is your double?”
Crais grew
weary with the conversation and closed his eyes again.
Crichton was
silent for a little while. When he could see Crais drift off, he started the
conversation again, “Hey, Crais. What if he stays like you?”
Crais opened
his eyes, “He won’t, Crichton. Once he is strong enough, his own mind will take
over and he will be Talyn again.”
“Are you
sure?”
“No, I am
not.”
“So, why say
it as if you are sure?”
Crais
sighed, “It would be the most logical conclusion.” He coughed and swallowed
deeply.
“How so?”
Crais’
throat was raw, “Would you hand me the water?”
Crichton
grinned, “Ah, magic word first.”
Crais was
annoyed, “What magic word?”
“Please?”
“Please
what?” Crais was getting more annoyed with Crichton’s word games.
“That’s the
magic word.”
Crais shook
his head. The Jhumon could be so infantile sometimes.
“No magic
word, no water,” it was obvious that Crichton was enjoying this.
Crais
wouldn’t be humiliated by Crichton. He reached for the flagon with his right
hand, but had to pull back when his shoulder protested. He pushed himself into
an upright position with his left arm and finally reached the liquid. He drank
deeply, the water only just beginning to quench his thirst. He lay back weakly.
Crichton
watched him with a smile. He toyed with Winona again, well aware that Crais had
seen this. “So, why is it a logical conclusion?”
Crais sighed
and closed his eyes. His voice had a little bit more strength, “Pilots must
have done this for their Leviathans in the past. If they knew that it would
only result in fatal or permanent injury to their Leviathans, then they would
not do so, knowing full well that if the Leviathan died, they would die with
them. It is a Pilot’s duty, his imperative, to serve his ship. It is only
logical to assume that in time the Leviathan’s mind should recover and establish
itself again.”
“But how
long will this take?”
“Not long, I
think. Probably long enough for the Leviathan to be strong enough to take over
the functions without help.”
“And you
think that Talyn will be able to think for himself, after what’s been done to
him?”
“Talyn is
strong-willed. He will recover soon.”
“We have
your word?”
Crais
averted his head, “Talyn is strong. He will be himself soon.”
Crichton
heard the sadness in Crais’ words, but did not understand the reason for it.
Before he
could question the Sebacean any further, Aeryn walked into the room.
“How is
Crais?”
“I’m fine,”
replied Crais.
“Yeah, a
model patient. Quiet as a mouse.”
“What’s a
mows?”
“A little
furry creature with sharp teeth. Scuttles in the dark.”
Crais opened
his eyes and looked at Crichton with annoyance.
“See, he
even has his old charm back.”
Aeryn moved
to Crais’ side, “How are you feeling, Crais?”
“Tired.
Thirsty. Can’t move my arm very much.”
She looked
over at the side and saw the empty flagon, “I’ll get you some more.” She
returned quickly and helped him drink. “You could have killed yourself helping
Talyn, Crais.”
He lay
back. “It was the only option. We would
be easy to find if word had been sent to High Command before… And had Talyn
died, the transport pod would not have been able to get us all to an inhabited
planet. It was the only way.”
Aeryn
scowled, “And what would have happened had you failed?”
Crais looked
away from them, “I would have died with Talyn. With one less person, you might
have had a better chance, even if it would have taken longer, to reach another
planet in the transport pod. If that had happened, I hope you would have had
the foresight to destroy Talyn.” He could feel their stares as they bore
through his back.
Crichton
laughed, “You would have done that?”
Crais turned
back, his eyes becoming animated with anger. “Yes, Crichton. I have promised
Talyn that he would never be alone. I intended and still do intend to keep that
promise.”
Crichton
backed off. Aeryn scowled at Crichton and then turned to Crais, “You rest, Sir.
We’ll talk later. Talyn seems to be resting easier too.” She was glad when a
small smile appeared on Crais’ face. She motioned Crichton out of the room, and
Crais settled down for some rest.
He could
hear them argue as they left the room, “You are such a frellnik, John…”
Crais
smiled; some things never changed. He eased his right shoulder against the
pillow.
He could
hear Talyn’s voice in his mind. Talyn was tired and confused but happy that
Crais was all right. Talyn assured Crais that he was resting now. He felt much
better.
Crais
smiled. It was good to hear Talyn
again.
He drifted
off to sleep.
The End